MY FIRST BLOG POST

Well quickly i shall tell u about my personality. Im almost always happy and barley ever serious unless the moment calls for it. I always want to help everyone else out with there problems and i always LOVE to talk. One other thing about me is that i care if people have like something against me even if they don't i just always assume its something bad. Like for example if im on Facebook and one of my friends doesn't talk to me for a while i would think they just don't want to talk to me. I dunno its just me :P. Simply i like to be friends with everybody.

WELL i started a new school this year and it was quite awkward at the start. All i had at the start were my burwood friends, other then that no one. Over a while i slowly made 1 main friend from the school, HE WAS MY ST MARY's biffle. Over a while we grew apart but we still stayed friends, just not as good. Everyone spread out into their own groups everyone started to fit in. As for me i kind of found my own group. Some people would think of them as rebels or cool kids. We all became really good friends but i never completely fitted in, its just not me to be cool.

I soon found my main friend group. People like me, who has my sense of well.... everything. They are like other versions of me, but a little different. The weeks came and went we all became better friends. One day on the bus i had a talk with one of them and its was really nice because i had a really serious conversation with him and it took a lot off my mind. He now is like my serious friend. I have another in science who is my unserious really funny friend, a sarcastic one and a Heaps funny blond one The weeks kept coming and i was then invited to this party thing.

At the party we saw paranormal activity and it was awesome O___O. Continuing there were girls and boys there and i was kind of awkward for me because i was the odd one out. After the movie we all went to eat (i didn't eat i just drank cause i have a REALLY FUCKEN SLOW METABOLISM but thats for another blog) I was going to talk to some of the girls but there was no chance i need to be one on one with them to actually get to people, but i guess things don't always go you way.

Everything kept going and it soon ended and i went home. On the way home all i could think about was how i failed with the girls, not in the girlfriend way but as becoming friends. Well i was walking through burwood and i met about 25 people that were my like acquaintance friends (your friends but just not the ones you hang out with, :P linking to how i want to be friends with everyone.) Well i soon decided to go home and then i went on facebook (at the time i never really went on) and it was AMAZING i got like 6 friend requests from the people at the party, like 2 hours since it ended. Well i added all of them deciding i will actually try to become friends with them and not just decline cause i didn't really know them. ONE OF THE BEST DECISIONS I MADE THIS YEAR. One of them, my friends girlfriend was like amazing nice to me and i was really really happy because i didn't expect it and a few weeks went by and we kept getting to know each other and then someone else added me. And then another two did and i was like when do the nice people stop :3. Well i started talking to her and she was just as nice. So my birthday went by and i decided to have this party thing later on so i made it an issue like straight away so i wouldn't forget.

Well that was a bad decision according to many people, some of them kept criticising me for it, telling me that is was my birthday and i decided who would go and they were giving me advice on who should and should not go. I soon became annoyed which is not really me because i barley ever get upset or angry at anything. From that i was wondering if i should just say on the day i was just sick and that i was really sorry. A joke between two of them mainly one was to say they were not able to come and they were sorry and i just got fed up, the joke was just fucken stupid all i felt like saying was enough is enough. Not to stat anything i love them both like FUCKEN HEAPS its just sometimes things go to far. LIKE IM THE FIRST ONE TO SAY IM A CONTINUOS PERSONAL joker, like i know its bad and i have to apologise to one of my friends like lately i have been getting pretty bad with the joking and today really opened my eyes when he really got upset over it. The thing with me is my apartness of my family people cant hurt me in any way with personal jokes because i have pretty much learnt to block it out. So my friend I APOLOGISE and i will try to stop. From that i believe that from that anyone can figure out that apart from my dad my friends are my closest family i will probably have till i get married, and even then they will be my closest non blood relatives.

But though that all sounds kinda bad its not meant to ITS JUST HOW I FELT NOT HOW THEY INTENDED IT, for example the joke that some of my friends is maybe just a funny joke i just don't see it that way. So no one get upset over this blog i love all my friends and i would be nothing without them, its just this post has helped me sort out some shit.

Referring to the title. I never really open or close any doors. For me LIFE CONTAINS WINDOWS, i shut them if i don't need them but still want them and keep them open if i do.

ILY ALL
LIL NEB